Guess Wad, I feel damn bored at the moment... First day of the week, and it is Science again ~
Cannot OS ( outsource ), and I am like doing the OS ( opening stock ) , for others to OS ( out source )...
Pure bored...juz looking forward to training after school, cause I really nothing to do now...
The past few days all slacking around, and now I am still slacking ~ The semester is ending soon, and soon I will need to part with the class now, and move on to my year 2.
Happy time sure flies, its been a year since I joined RP, and learned lots of things from the people around me. Not only knowledge, skills, I even learned how others feel when I do something. I have learn a important lesson, never interrupt when a girl is talking, cause that is the basic manners you want to show her.
For those that I have actually interrupted in your talk b4, I apologize for what I have did.
Recently, new year is around the corner, so I packed my house like what I have said b4. I found some pictures and yearbook of my past, and it really gave me a good laugh. Looking at the past and now, how much difference there are in me.
So sad, cause I have already spent 1 year in RP, and I am only left with 2 years in RP. I really love my school. Nice Environment, Friendly people, Friends, Sisters, Brothers, and even sayang in my school.
But I really had a great time in the past year, although some of my brothers are graduating and leaving already, hope to keep in contact with them.
RP ROX ~
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Hai...weekends again...
So boring!!! HAha... Today, my fren book out from camp so we actually went for dinner together...
After the dinner, I went home, and actually did some spring cleaning. Cleared out tons of unwanted books, packed up my closet ( actually the clothes are all over the cabinet, but now cleared ).
It is very clearly that I am someone that rarely clean up my closets!!!! Haha...
Ok ~ thats more or less I have done today, got to go practice more...
( ps. I have found some of my old pictures, and I am soooo shock to see them, cant even recognize myself...)
So boring!!! HAha... Today, my fren book out from camp so we actually went for dinner together...
After the dinner, I went home, and actually did some spring cleaning. Cleared out tons of unwanted books, packed up my closet ( actually the clothes are all over the cabinet, but now cleared ).
It is very clearly that I am someone that rarely clean up my closets!!!! Haha...
Ok ~ thats more or less I have done today, got to go practice more...
( ps. I have found some of my old pictures, and I am soooo shock to see them, cant even recognize myself...)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Wa long time no blog, basically lazy HAHA!!
Went to Sentosa on sunday!! The Sun was damn nice, nice until I got burn until like roast pig.HAHAHA
Went with my secondary school fren Dove, and he bought along his frenz. But eventually turn into my frenz as well lar. There were like 5 of us, Alan, Enen, France, dove and me in a car and Alan drove into sentosa. Quite a nice day spending there.
Then after that we went to pastamania to eat lunch. But beware!!! The lousy mushroom pasta sux... it is tasteless and in fact digusting!!! So dun eat it!!!
At night actually went to eat dinner with my secondary school frenz, den went arcade play awhile. Went Home study UT...
Anyway, my hp is cut off so if you guys want contact me call my house at 67594184 or on msn.
Hai, need to wait till next month b4 I can clear my bills.
Now is science, which is pure boredom and kinda easy, so got the free time to come blog...
Later got training and I am going to chong like siao...
Getting shorter and shorter
And shorter
End...
Went to Sentosa on sunday!! The Sun was damn nice, nice until I got burn until like roast pig.HAHAHA
Went with my secondary school fren Dove, and he bought along his frenz. But eventually turn into my frenz as well lar. There were like 5 of us, Alan, Enen, France, dove and me in a car and Alan drove into sentosa. Quite a nice day spending there.
Then after that we went to pastamania to eat lunch. But beware!!! The lousy mushroom pasta sux... it is tasteless and in fact digusting!!! So dun eat it!!!
At night actually went to eat dinner with my secondary school frenz, den went arcade play awhile. Went Home study UT...
Anyway, my hp is cut off so if you guys want contact me call my house at 67594184 or on msn.
Hai, need to wait till next month b4 I can clear my bills.
Now is science, which is pure boredom and kinda easy, so got the free time to come blog...
Later got training and I am going to chong like siao...
Getting shorter and shorter
And shorter
End...
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Sorry, but this is another post about me and volleyball again.
Today, it is a sad day for me. All my hopes are kinda broken, and after all they might be just false hopes. I was sad, not because of the team losing. The main thing is that I find that no one has actually considered me at all.
After the match we went to mos burger to eat. On the bus back to woodlands, Alecs was so happy cause he finally proved that he was useful as he has got 5 points for the team. I was also quite happy for him, cause he finally proves to the coach that people he doesn't focus training on also have their uses. And while we were talking, I ask him that whether I have to chance to play in U19. And as expected, he said quite hard. Its ok for him to say that, cause I know maybe now I might not be good enuff for to play.
Here comes the main point. After the meal at mos burger, they started off discussing about who would play in the U19. They started off with those familiar names, all the way to asking the subset, Eugene to come back to the team to play libero. Even though knowing I wish to be libero, no one actually cared about it. In fact there were no signs of my name to mentioned. I was left out during trainings, not being considered into main 12 of IVP, and now not even U19.I really felt so transparent, so left out.
They were saying, when mus, elwin and alecs leaves, our team will be much more weaker, and I really wonder, if I leave, will anyone even bother? Will it affect anything at all? If someone from main team never turns up for training, they will ask about it, and I wonder again, will anyone even notice I am not there?
I have been always trying out my best, being very serious with trainings, and even train on my own during free time, but noting ever seems to change. I really wish to do something memorable in my poly days. I had never done anything that can make me feel memorable in the past, and I dun wish that this continues.I want others take note of me, not really find me important, just to take note of me. When I see everyone in the team gets to play today, I was so envy. Everyone gets to play, and they all their positions. What am I??? Where is my position?? I really dunnoe. Everyone have a position in the game, centre, setter, liboro, main spike. But where am I??
1 year ago in the orentation SLA fiesta, I chose volleyball as my IG. I came for trainings, doing all my trainings seriously, and see people from the same batch getting lesser and lesser. But 1 year have passed, and I still find that I am still on the spot, haven't move nearer toward the main team. I have nothing that I am better than others, not spiking, not setting. I even encourage others, and see them moving on. Wong has entered the main team, dai guan that joined later than me has also gone into the main team. But me? I am still sitting outside, very far from where I want to be.
Everyone in the team knows I want to be libero, and I even requested to coach to train me, but until now I dun see others to see me as one. I listen to their advice, and tries to improve, but maybe not doing it right, I am still where I used to be.
Someone asked me why am I so defensive sometimes when I speak. If you are a person being mocked since primary school,all the way till now, how would you feel? I was never being treated as important person. During Secondary school, I was always treated as the weakest reserve of my table tennis team. I was always mocked to be fat. I was always looked down. And now treated transparent. How can I be not defensive ?
Now what I can really do is just to continue to do the same things, hoping one day that I will be given a position, treated as a part of the team.
Today, it is a sad day for me. All my hopes are kinda broken, and after all they might be just false hopes. I was sad, not because of the team losing. The main thing is that I find that no one has actually considered me at all.
After the match we went to mos burger to eat. On the bus back to woodlands, Alecs was so happy cause he finally proved that he was useful as he has got 5 points for the team. I was also quite happy for him, cause he finally proves to the coach that people he doesn't focus training on also have their uses. And while we were talking, I ask him that whether I have to chance to play in U19. And as expected, he said quite hard. Its ok for him to say that, cause I know maybe now I might not be good enuff for to play.
Here comes the main point. After the meal at mos burger, they started off discussing about who would play in the U19. They started off with those familiar names, all the way to asking the subset, Eugene to come back to the team to play libero. Even though knowing I wish to be libero, no one actually cared about it. In fact there were no signs of my name to mentioned. I was left out during trainings, not being considered into main 12 of IVP, and now not even U19.I really felt so transparent, so left out.
They were saying, when mus, elwin and alecs leaves, our team will be much more weaker, and I really wonder, if I leave, will anyone even bother? Will it affect anything at all? If someone from main team never turns up for training, they will ask about it, and I wonder again, will anyone even notice I am not there?
I have been always trying out my best, being very serious with trainings, and even train on my own during free time, but noting ever seems to change. I really wish to do something memorable in my poly days. I had never done anything that can make me feel memorable in the past, and I dun wish that this continues.I want others take note of me, not really find me important, just to take note of me. When I see everyone in the team gets to play today, I was so envy. Everyone gets to play, and they all their positions. What am I??? Where is my position?? I really dunnoe. Everyone have a position in the game, centre, setter, liboro, main spike. But where am I??
1 year ago in the orentation SLA fiesta, I chose volleyball as my IG. I came for trainings, doing all my trainings seriously, and see people from the same batch getting lesser and lesser. But 1 year have passed, and I still find that I am still on the spot, haven't move nearer toward the main team. I have nothing that I am better than others, not spiking, not setting. I even encourage others, and see them moving on. Wong has entered the main team, dai guan that joined later than me has also gone into the main team. But me? I am still sitting outside, very far from where I want to be.
Everyone in the team knows I want to be libero, and I even requested to coach to train me, but until now I dun see others to see me as one. I listen to their advice, and tries to improve, but maybe not doing it right, I am still where I used to be.
Someone asked me why am I so defensive sometimes when I speak. If you are a person being mocked since primary school,all the way till now, how would you feel? I was never being treated as important person. During Secondary school, I was always treated as the weakest reserve of my table tennis team. I was always mocked to be fat. I was always looked down. And now treated transparent. How can I be not defensive ?
Now what I can really do is just to continue to do the same things, hoping one day that I will be given a position, treated as a part of the team.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
For others it might be a holiday to them for this monday and tuesday due to open house, but not for me. I actually signed up as a tour guide for students visiting our school. And I really like this duty, not only because I like my school, get to play around, but most importantly, I get to know more people around.
Although it might be tiring cause I have to talk ( or rather call it shouting ) in a noisy place, take note of all the students, and nid to walk and explain around the school, but basically it was pure fun. I have always wanted to be a tour guide, showing people nice thing and beautiful places, and this was like wad I did, showing others my school, why I like it and enjoy studying here.
And the best things are not getting CE points or get to know more around the school, but is to get to know more people. I didn't only get to know all those tour guides, SA people, I get to know people from different school. It actually boost my confidence to speak up to people, and start off a conversation with others.
As you know, people with no special talents (like me!!!), usually find it hard to start off some conversation, due to we find that talking to people that are like more superior( HA!) , we will find it not comfortable... Maybe this situation only happens to me, and maybe not... (I was like talking to this teens magazine Mr.handsome winner and I wasn't having that, shit, why do I have to talk to this kind to good looking guy around the school... )
But anyway, I know my pros and cons well, I might not be handsome, good-looking in anyway, and might not have special talents like sports, music, or smart... but I have my pros too. Basically, I am thick skin, hardly feel shameful, never give up ( others call this stubbon ), super duper hyperactive, optimistic I guess, and lastly I guess my smile will let others find me frenly?!(will it??) HAHA, I am like praising myself here lolx!!! But overall, I believe hardwork can overcome all my cons, and turn the cons to pros.( provided those that can be change lar, good-looking maybe not~)
Ok, tats all for the day, And overall I really enjoyed being a tour guide, being able to do something I always wants to do. (I find myself going mad, cause I am going around talking to people I dun know, and they actually reply back... or maybe it is juz because it is on the open house days lolx!!)
Although it might be tiring cause I have to talk ( or rather call it shouting ) in a noisy place, take note of all the students, and nid to walk and explain around the school, but basically it was pure fun. I have always wanted to be a tour guide, showing people nice thing and beautiful places, and this was like wad I did, showing others my school, why I like it and enjoy studying here.
And the best things are not getting CE points or get to know more around the school, but is to get to know more people. I didn't only get to know all those tour guides, SA people, I get to know people from different school. It actually boost my confidence to speak up to people, and start off a conversation with others.
As you know, people with no special talents (like me!!!), usually find it hard to start off some conversation, due to we find that talking to people that are like more superior( HA!) , we will find it not comfortable... Maybe this situation only happens to me, and maybe not... (I was like talking to this teens magazine Mr.handsome winner and I wasn't having that, shit, why do I have to talk to this kind to good looking guy around the school... )
But anyway, I know my pros and cons well, I might not be handsome, good-looking in anyway, and might not have special talents like sports, music, or smart... but I have my pros too. Basically, I am thick skin, hardly feel shameful, never give up ( others call this stubbon ), super duper hyperactive, optimistic I guess, and lastly I guess my smile will let others find me frenly?!(will it??) HAHA, I am like praising myself here lolx!!! But overall, I believe hardwork can overcome all my cons, and turn the cons to pros.( provided those that can be change lar, good-looking maybe not~)
Ok, tats all for the day, And overall I really enjoyed being a tour guide, being able to do something I always wants to do. (I find myself going mad, cause I am going around talking to people I dun know, and they actually reply back... or maybe it is juz because it is on the open house days lolx!!)
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Normal Saturday again, as usual tat lazy!!! Like wad I have said, I wanna work for U19, so I did today. And for more, I receive a message in the morning from yenkai, my VB teammate- captain for this year. He apologized for not doing well in the recent game. But I find that it was not his fault, since volleyball is a team game, everyone has a part to play, and everyone holds the responsibility for lost. And that motivates me to work harder, in order to play apart in the team.
I went down to the void deck and practice against the wall on my own...and so many ppl walk past looking at me with those kind of weird weird eyes... but i didn't really cared but continued practicing on my own!!!
Now, I will not stop because of disappointment or how people look at me, cause I know I keep practicing, I will be better than how I am now, and 1 day my turn will come.
I went down to the void deck and practice against the wall on my own...and so many ppl walk past looking at me with those kind of weird weird eyes... but i didn't really cared but continued practicing on my own!!!
Now, I will not stop because of disappointment or how people look at me, cause I know I keep practicing, I will be better than how I am now, and 1 day my turn will come.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Ok, its time for me to share my sorrows and my dreams. Lolx...
Today, went down to TP to watch the guys volleyball match against NP. Although we lost, it is the very first time where i can see the team as 1, where we cheer as one, shout as 1. I am still very proud of them, even if they lost cause they finally played as a team.
And by looking at them, it really gives me the BIG push that I also want to play badly in the court. I might not be as experienced as any one of them in there, and not well skilled as any one, or even can sae I am still not good enough to go into the court. That is y I am still still by the side, not on the bench, not in the court. And under 19 is the next upcoming match. If i really get to play, I will be really glad, but if I can't, I could only say my skills are not there yet. And how can I improve, train and everything??? Not much things cause till now KT still not bothering about us non-main team players. All I can do is ask from advice from everyone and learn from there. Really got lots of things to do b4 the U19 match comes. Or shall I say only got 1 important thing to do, and that is to practice more!!!
I guess I will make full use of the 2 months holiday and b4 the new year 1 comes in, I need to achieve something to ensure I can make sure I get a position to play. Other den practicing on my own and go trainings, I guess nothing much else I can do, since I dun think I can get experience without playing match, and that means KT muz let me play before I can get any experience...
This might really sounds easy, but like wad we always say, action speaks louder than words.And of course, actions are also harder than words. So all I do, is juz to work and work and work, while what you guys out there can do for me, is to tell me my mistakes and give me some support to keep me going. And I would like to say again, Thank you everyone, without you guys, I might not make it this far.
So lets just make it a bet, who thinks that I am going to make it into the main 12 of U19??
Ok Thats all about wad I am going to do, and btw I am gonna be the tour guide for RP open house!!! (always wanted to be some tour guide, and now finally is 1!!!)
Wish Me Good Luck!!!
Today, went down to TP to watch the guys volleyball match against NP. Although we lost, it is the very first time where i can see the team as 1, where we cheer as one, shout as 1. I am still very proud of them, even if they lost cause they finally played as a team.
And by looking at them, it really gives me the BIG push that I also want to play badly in the court. I might not be as experienced as any one of them in there, and not well skilled as any one, or even can sae I am still not good enough to go into the court. That is y I am still still by the side, not on the bench, not in the court. And under 19 is the next upcoming match. If i really get to play, I will be really glad, but if I can't, I could only say my skills are not there yet. And how can I improve, train and everything??? Not much things cause till now KT still not bothering about us non-main team players. All I can do is ask from advice from everyone and learn from there. Really got lots of things to do b4 the U19 match comes. Or shall I say only got 1 important thing to do, and that is to practice more!!!
I guess I will make full use of the 2 months holiday and b4 the new year 1 comes in, I need to achieve something to ensure I can make sure I get a position to play. Other den practicing on my own and go trainings, I guess nothing much else I can do, since I dun think I can get experience without playing match, and that means KT muz let me play before I can get any experience...
This might really sounds easy, but like wad we always say, action speaks louder than words.And of course, actions are also harder than words. So all I do, is juz to work and work and work, while what you guys out there can do for me, is to tell me my mistakes and give me some support to keep me going. And I would like to say again, Thank you everyone, without you guys, I might not make it this far.
So lets just make it a bet, who thinks that I am going to make it into the main 12 of U19??
Ok Thats all about wad I am going to do, and btw I am gonna be the tour guide for RP open house!!! (always wanted to be some tour guide, and now finally is 1!!!)
Wish Me Good Luck!!!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Hi, Long time no update again, and its been a week or more... the volleyball IVP has started and of course I am not in the team... After hearing from alecs saying that I was not considered at all to be in the team abit sad, cause is like i very useless... But nvm I make sure next time I get in...This time cannot, next time sure can one....( hope so!! )
All along I hope the reason I didn't get in is because I was taken as a libero ( those 1 in a team position), so if I didn't get in is because there are other liberos around so I didn't get in is because I am still not good enuff...but after all, I am still not tat good lolx!!! so people around, when see my mistakes tell me hor!!! I need to learn ~
Ok, enuff of volley, I noe alot complaining again... lets talk about life...honestly, not much happened,normal like days, dancing singing laughing playing schooling everyday!!! not much special, juz tat I am going to watch the IVP match everyday, or going to the gym during weekends...
Really dunoe wad have became of me, really dunoe wad I have changed, did I improve? All these are questions I cant answer myself, thus I really need everyones comments and tips to me for me to be a better me.
"Listening is always the best way to be a better me" by Keith!!!
"Lets Not Wait For Things To Happen, Instead Work For The Thing To Happen" by Keith too!!!
"Chances will not drop from the sky, and I shall not sit and wait for the chance to come..." Of course, it is still written by me!!!
Hahahaha, so free, lots of you must be cursing WTH are you blogging about, but really ps, cause really not much happening, but I am going to dedicate my coming holiday to volleyball, cause I am going to place my bet on the next upcoming match, as if I dun get to play, when the NEW year 1 comes in, my chances will be almost 0% to play, so it is a once and for all or nothing at all bet...
By the way, thank you for everyones support and encouragement throughout all this time...
"Support from others is the best way to a person going on" By Keith, which is still me!!!
( I am such a IDIOT!!!! WAHAHAHA)
All along I hope the reason I didn't get in is because I was taken as a libero ( those 1 in a team position), so if I didn't get in is because there are other liberos around so I didn't get in is because I am still not good enuff...but after all, I am still not tat good lolx!!! so people around, when see my mistakes tell me hor!!! I need to learn ~
Ok, enuff of volley, I noe alot complaining again... lets talk about life...honestly, not much happened,normal like days, dancing singing laughing playing schooling everyday!!! not much special, juz tat I am going to watch the IVP match everyday, or going to the gym during weekends...
Really dunoe wad have became of me, really dunoe wad I have changed, did I improve? All these are questions I cant answer myself, thus I really need everyones comments and tips to me for me to be a better me.
"Listening is always the best way to be a better me" by Keith!!!
"Lets Not Wait For Things To Happen, Instead Work For The Thing To Happen" by Keith too!!!
"Chances will not drop from the sky, and I shall not sit and wait for the chance to come..." Of course, it is still written by me!!!
Hahahaha, so free, lots of you must be cursing WTH are you blogging about, but really ps, cause really not much happening, but I am going to dedicate my coming holiday to volleyball, cause I am going to place my bet on the next upcoming match, as if I dun get to play, when the NEW year 1 comes in, my chances will be almost 0% to play, so it is a once and for all or nothing at all bet...
By the way, thank you for everyones support and encouragement throughout all this time...
"Support from others is the best way to a person going on" By Keith, which is still me!!!
( I am such a IDIOT!!!! WAHAHAHA)
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Hahaha, A new year, a new start...So I changed the whole skin of my blog as well as u can see here.How is it not bad hor...
Okay, since is a new year, lets talk about new year resolutions. This is my first time writing resolutions, so dun demoralize me or I will slap your ass...
1. Slim Down
2. Gain muscle
3. Wear Singlet
4. Get tanned.
5. Be More Confident
6.Don't Be Too Lazy
7. Don't Be Too Emo
8.Adding In Later....
Hahaha, tat should be all. But anyway, thx for everyone in the past years for all the time with me.I really enjoyed my time with everyone and the memories are beautiful.THANK YOU!!!
I also enjoyed a very nice christmas and New Year. The fireworks teaches me 1 thing- beautiful things might not last forever, but at least it shines beautifully for once...
Okay, since is a new year, lets talk about new year resolutions. This is my first time writing resolutions, so dun demoralize me or I will slap your ass...
1. Slim Down
2. Gain muscle
3. Wear Singlet
4. Get tanned.
5. Be More Confident
6.Don't Be Too Lazy
7. Don't Be Too Emo
8.Adding In Later....
Hahaha, tat should be all. But anyway, thx for everyone in the past years for all the time with me.I really enjoyed my time with everyone and the memories are beautiful.THANK YOU!!!
I also enjoyed a very nice christmas and New Year. The fireworks teaches me 1 thing- beautiful things might not last forever, but at least it shines beautifully for once...
Hahaha, A new year, a new start...So I changed the whole skin of my blog as well as u can see here.How is it not bad hor...
Okay, since is a new year, lets talk about new year resolutions. This is my first time writing resolutions, so dun demoralize me or I will slap your ass...
1. Slim Down
2. Gain muscle
3. Wear Singlet
4. Get tanned.
5. Be More Confident
6.Don't Be Too Lazy
7. Don't Be Too Emo
8.Adding In Later....
Hahaha, tat should be all. But anyway, thx for everyone in the past years for all the time with me.I really enjoyed my time with everyone and the memories are beautiful.THANK YOU!!!
I also enjoyed a very nice christmas and New Year. The fireworks teaches me 1 thing- beautiful things might not last forever, but at least it shines beautifully for once...
Okay, since is a new year, lets talk about new year resolutions. This is my first time writing resolutions, so dun demoralize me or I will slap your ass...
1. Slim Down
2. Gain muscle
3. Wear Singlet
4. Get tanned.
5. Be More Confident
6.Don't Be Too Lazy
7. Don't Be Too Emo
8.Adding In Later....
Hahaha, tat should be all. But anyway, thx for everyone in the past years for all the time with me.I really enjoyed my time with everyone and the memories are beautiful.THANK YOU!!!
I also enjoyed a very nice christmas and New Year. The fireworks teaches me 1 thing- beautiful things might not last forever, but at least it shines beautifully for once...
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
