Keith Koo Xingjian's Blog

Dunoe From when onwards, I start to feel so lonely... I start to find that I am like always not enuff time... got to manage my time with my classmates, my ex-classmates in W25L, volleyball training and to spent my time with my buddys of my secondary school... It seems that everyone is complaining that I havent been spending enough time with them, and I find that too... I feel so sorry, so tired... My relationship with everyone is never like before anymore... but I juz doesn't have any extra time to do anything else... I felt so sorry about everything...
I cant do everything at once, and cant possibly satisfied everyone's likes and dislike...
Everyone has his or her own "wants", and sometimes they require others to be the same as well, this goes for me too, is juz tat mine is maybe lower than others... someone might want to be frenz with others who benefits him, some might want someone who can spend all his time with him...
As for me, I am open to anyone, I like frenz, as long they treat me as a fren... But at the same time, sometime I have to attend to everyone, so I hope you guys will understand me, as I have other people and things to attend to... I will always try to spend my time with you guys, as long as I am free, and even sometimes when I am not free, I try to go out with you guys, even it cause me to miss school that day... And as you guys know, I retook once my olvls, I dun wish to waste my time anymore, I was stuck in the year doing noting, and I really don't wish the same things ever happen again... I wan to live my life with colours, do something out of it and make as much frenz as possible... So now I am really trying to spend all my time with everyone I know, and I nid time to practise my skills for volleyball, as I am not good at all now...
So, I really appreciate all your understanding, although I can't spend all my time with you all, but I will spend as much time as possible with you all...
Its up to you guys to think of I have said is rubbish or not, but think carefully, you also want something in life, I bet you would not want to have only 1 bunch of frenz only, or juz do nothing in your life... you might want to be a businessman, sportsman or wadever, and for now, I have my own things that I wish to archeive too. And trust me, I know everyone got something in life they wish to do, and what they want to get from their frenz. I am someone who can see through things fast, are you happy or unhappy with certain things.
I will juz try to put in my time to archeive wad I wanna do, and spend the rest of my time with my frenz, and really enjoy the time I spend with you guys. Hope you all will understand I have things I wanna do as well, as I dun want to play as a reserve player forever, standing being people, and never ever being considered to play for the team, juz like wad wad happen in my secondary school. I have no talents, so the only way for me to sucess is to work hard. Everyone who knows me know that I can give up easily if I want to, but I am persistance to somethings sometimes, there will never be a giving up unless I know that there is no one being me, supporting me... And I hope you guys as my best frenz, I hope you all will give me your support, as I really nid it.
And if I really break my promise, I can only apologize. Sometimes people find me saying sorry too much times, and is like my sorries are not worth anyting, I can only say that thats the only way I can show apologize for not doing well.
And if you are unhappy with me for anyting, plz feel free to tell me, so I can change, and be a better me.